To continue the trend of having a guest writter on the blog once a fortnight I have chosen a friend of mine named Kate Winch. I have only met Kate once, however during this meeting I could tell that Kate was passionate about life and the people in and around her. I have been reading some of her comments, stats updates and posts on Facebook and came across this awesome one below, it resonated with me and I thought all the blog readers would like to give it a read. Enjoy!
The past few months have seen various parts of the world subjected to horrific natural disasters. Our media outlets have been flooded with stories of tragedy, miracles and heroism. We've watched as people lost everything they owned, and the resounding cho...rus has been, "At least I am alive."
For most of us, as these events unfolded, we become information junkies. We waited for the next update as we struggled to comprehend events we, as people, simply had no control over. It scared us. Talk quickly turned to the issues of climate change, political blame and, for some, the prophecies for 2012. But that's where it ended - watching and talking. No action.
All focus was initially on Queensland's floods. This was overtaken by news of Cyclone Yasi, while Victoria's floods and bushfires only received minimal attention because other events were larger. Then there were the quakes in New Zealand. This time Queensland was forgotten. Not long after New Zealand became the next to be pushed down the ladder, as news broke of the disaster in Japan. Our hearts broke for the people involved each time. We also joined the chorus, "At least you are alive."
How many of us though took the time to really realise just how much value there is in a life? Both our own and that of other people?
If something like the past few months doesn't cause you to re evaluate your life, what will? Because for most of us, we are still sitting watching news, crying for strangers while our next door neighbors heart is breaking, our families are hurting and people are lonely. The natural disasters this year couldn't be stopped, but so many closer to home could be if we were all prepared to get off our butts, sacrifice a little time and care about someone else.
What if when we updated our Facebook status with prayers for wherever, we also sent a message to a friend to ask how they were? Or if we turned off the streaming disaster coverage and had coffee with a family member? What if we realised that the person hurting on tv is just the same as the person hurting right beside us? If we saved one life, or eased one burden, wouldn't it be worth the effort? Or is it just easier to watch a disaster miles away and say, "I wish I could do something," without ever having to risk actually doing it? If we do nothing, nothing changes.
We may not be able to do anything about what has happened, or climate change, or 2012, but we can do something to change the world. We can become better citizens, in small ways, every day. We can turn our emotional responses to these disasters into positive change for ourselves and our loved ones. If we genuinely feel for other people, shouldn't we be doing something about it? Shouldn't we extend the same empathy to all people, not just the ones headlining the news?
I, for one, will no longer live in fear of death, disaster or apocalypses. Being informed is great, but unless you use that information for something, other than scaring yourself, it doesn't serve a purpose. What does is actually living. Take that fear, and the realisation that we aren't going to live forever, and channel it into a full, happy and compassionate life.
Think about it. If you died today, what would you regret not having done? Not telling someone how you felt? Not taking a risk? Not standing up for something you believe in? Not following your dream? Right now, you still have all those opportunities. All you have to do is take them. It's easy to believe the results will be bad, because we are fed on tragedy and heartbreak, but there are just as many miracles and outpourings of love.
Today, really live. It's the only true way to honour the precious gift we call life.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Fats, what are they good for, absolutely nothing? Or is that really the case?
Why do I consume a diet high in Fat?
Over the last 18 months I have changed my diet a lot. I decided to do a lot of extra research into a topic that seems to confuse so many people and also use myself as a guinea pig and live by example.
I changed my thoughts on food and I changed how I cooked my foods. I changed where I sourced my foods and how I prepared them (processed).
I found that a lot of people were Anti-fat and it got me thinking, why is this?
I never stopped to think about it before. I just went about my day reiterating what I had read or been told without having even researched or scratched the surface on what I was saying and quoting. Simply, I didn’t OWN my food decisions. I just followed the trend…I trusted the government, I trusted food companies, I trusted anyone that would mention food… Never thinking that what they were saying could be helping them earn money or focus more on things other then my own health or the health of any individual.
The bad news for me was that the TREND I found was 1:3 – 1:2 Australians were/are dying from health related diseases. Heart disease, diabetes,
Could the information be wrong? Could we be missing an important step in the evolution of humans? Was our food nourishing our bodies enough that we were continuing to be healthy, and reproduce? Was the information leading to diseases (dis-ease) and fertility problems and eventually we would die out??
I decided to start thinking a little before making purchases. What was my money supporting? Was it good for the environment, humanity and myself? Did I need to eat what I was eating? Where else could I get nutrition from? Were the foods I was eating supporting health and happiness?
I searched for a long time, read heaps of view points and am to his day still searching for the most correct response to help answer these questions. The questions will go on for ever.
What I have found so far is a lot of confusion, some things more confusing then others. Some points making perfect sense but confliction with other….. wow, how was anyone supposed to know what was going on and what to truly do??
The easiest way I found I could ever simplify things was to ask this question: How did we evolve some 4 million years ago?
How was it that we didn’t already die out? Way only NOW, since the introductions of many “foods” were we seeing our highest ever rates of obesity, sickness and death. Surely if this was the case when we were hunting and gathering everyday, we would not have survived this long? I mean after all aren’t we supposed to be so much more advanced, with our modern science and life saving machines?
How did man kind get it to such a BAD position? Sure we have almost 7 billion people populating this world but with more then HALF of the Australia population dying from health related disease alone not to mention the world, it would make perfect sense to think that maybe something that we are doing is NOT working!!
I looked around at what most people defined as health. Being a personal trainer I found patterns and certain thoughts about healthy living that seemed to sit well with people.
They tended to be, to be healthy you needed to avoid fats, eat salad mostly and consume grains and fruit in abundance.
Sounds right yeh? Well it didn’t sit well with me. I didn’t see how that if at least the large majority of people were attempting this and yet there still was NO SHIFT in the right direction there still was something missing.
I moved on from this because it was frustrating to hear so many of the same views and opinions but also see such a HUGE rate of health related disease.
I was once told by a teacher of mine, that if what you’re doing is not working, do the complete opposite and see how you go. So this is what I basically did. I started to look at FAT seeing as people were constantly told that fats would kill them by hardening their arteries giving them all heart attacks. I wasn’t convinced
This already for me was hard to believe seeing as when I think evolution, I think animal meats and it seemed to make us capable of getting to this point but all of a sudden meat from quality animals was THE ENEMY…
So I looked into good quality meats. What is good quality… well it is meats raised on diets that were native to them. Stuff they were designed to consume. Unlike us they don’t have the ability to make up new foods, they had to eat what was given to them from Mother Nature and do the best they could.
When eating meats the best kind is clearly, pasture raised.
So back to my point, I was being told to avoid meats, but what was I avoiding?
A little research found me this: The TEN top facts I have came across.
1. Cancer eats sugar, and sugar provokes cancer growth in the human body. So it would make sense to eat less sugar (carbs) and slightly higher fat and protein from quality sources such as grass fed beef and free range chickens?
2. The human body can not absorb minerals without the presence of fats.
Violent death and murder rates along with suicide correlates with people on a low fat diet by more then 4 times that of people eating higher fat diets. Pretty interesting, fats balance hormones, out of control hormones tend to lead to depression and suicide. Begs the question that if we feed someone who is depressed more quality fats instead of anti-depressants (band-aid) would that help them more??
3. Fats regulate our hormones. Possible that all hormonal dysfunction can be eased, helped or cured if we were to balance our quality fat intake?
4. Fats and cholesterol help construct the integrity of all cells without them your hard tissues turn soft and your soft tissues turn hard. It is well known that the people with the lowest cholesterol readings are people suffering from cancer.
5. The brain is almost 80% fat and the brain actually runs pretty low on carbohydrates. Any more then a teaspoon of sugar in the blood will invoke a emergency within the body. Our pancreases will secrete large amounts of insulin to shuttle the excess sugar out of the blood and into our cells. Yes eating lots of FRUIT or natural sugars of any kind will have the same reaction!
6. The heart is surrounded by lots of saturated fat, as this is what it draws on in time of need. Constantly stressing the heart to elongated bouts of physical activity has a stressful response on our bodies. The heart has to then protect its self as it’s constantly being overworked. Hence why I find it more realistic to train for less then 45 mins 4 times per week with varied work intensity. Stress in high amounts no matter what it is, is generally bad.
7. Our bodies will not effectively incorporated calcium into our muscle tissue and bone structure with out the presence of fat. So sure you consume calcium from leafy green vegetable but are you eating enough saturated fats to help assimilate this and obtain any benefit from the consumption?
8. Fats attract toxins, without fats, our bodies will be damaged by the horrendous toxic environment we live in each day. It’s fair to say that without fats to attract these toxins we would could expect more muscle and organ damage. Not cool.
9. We have essential FATS, which in case you missed it are ESSENTIAL. Essential for what you might ask??… well, LIFE… pretty essential.. There are NO essential carbohydrates.
10. I would be sicker more then normal if I didn’t consume fats in my diet. They actually enhance our immune system. Pretty important for the elderly and young in particular.
Again, this is the information that I came across and have decided is right for me. As a individual who is responsible for my own health. People should also OWN their health choices. After all we are in this mess because we just recited information we heard in school or on government funded advertising.
It’s your turn to stand up and ask yourself, ‘is what I’m doing good for me’ or is it good for someone else/someone company? You be the ultimate judge. We are in control of what we DO each and every day. Think about what you support with your purchase in the form of health, money, humanity and our environment.
In health and happiness,
Shane Richards
Over the last 18 months I have changed my diet a lot. I decided to do a lot of extra research into a topic that seems to confuse so many people and also use myself as a guinea pig and live by example.
I changed my thoughts on food and I changed how I cooked my foods. I changed where I sourced my foods and how I prepared them (processed).
I found that a lot of people were Anti-fat and it got me thinking, why is this?
I never stopped to think about it before. I just went about my day reiterating what I had read or been told without having even researched or scratched the surface on what I was saying and quoting. Simply, I didn’t OWN my food decisions. I just followed the trend…I trusted the government, I trusted food companies, I trusted anyone that would mention food… Never thinking that what they were saying could be helping them earn money or focus more on things other then my own health or the health of any individual.
The bad news for me was that the TREND I found was 1:3 – 1:2 Australians were/are dying from health related diseases. Heart disease, diabetes,
Could the information be wrong? Could we be missing an important step in the evolution of humans? Was our food nourishing our bodies enough that we were continuing to be healthy, and reproduce? Was the information leading to diseases (dis-ease) and fertility problems and eventually we would die out??
I decided to start thinking a little before making purchases. What was my money supporting? Was it good for the environment, humanity and myself? Did I need to eat what I was eating? Where else could I get nutrition from? Were the foods I was eating supporting health and happiness?
I searched for a long time, read heaps of view points and am to his day still searching for the most correct response to help answer these questions. The questions will go on for ever.
What I have found so far is a lot of confusion, some things more confusing then others. Some points making perfect sense but confliction with other….. wow, how was anyone supposed to know what was going on and what to truly do??
The easiest way I found I could ever simplify things was to ask this question: How did we evolve some 4 million years ago?
How was it that we didn’t already die out? Way only NOW, since the introductions of many “foods” were we seeing our highest ever rates of obesity, sickness and death. Surely if this was the case when we were hunting and gathering everyday, we would not have survived this long? I mean after all aren’t we supposed to be so much more advanced, with our modern science and life saving machines?
How did man kind get it to such a BAD position? Sure we have almost 7 billion people populating this world but with more then HALF of the Australia population dying from health related disease alone not to mention the world, it would make perfect sense to think that maybe something that we are doing is NOT working!!
I looked around at what most people defined as health. Being a personal trainer I found patterns and certain thoughts about healthy living that seemed to sit well with people.
They tended to be, to be healthy you needed to avoid fats, eat salad mostly and consume grains and fruit in abundance.
Sounds right yeh? Well it didn’t sit well with me. I didn’t see how that if at least the large majority of people were attempting this and yet there still was NO SHIFT in the right direction there still was something missing.
I moved on from this because it was frustrating to hear so many of the same views and opinions but also see such a HUGE rate of health related disease.
I was once told by a teacher of mine, that if what you’re doing is not working, do the complete opposite and see how you go. So this is what I basically did. I started to look at FAT seeing as people were constantly told that fats would kill them by hardening their arteries giving them all heart attacks. I wasn’t convinced
This already for me was hard to believe seeing as when I think evolution, I think animal meats and it seemed to make us capable of getting to this point but all of a sudden meat from quality animals was THE ENEMY…
So I looked into good quality meats. What is good quality… well it is meats raised on diets that were native to them. Stuff they were designed to consume. Unlike us they don’t have the ability to make up new foods, they had to eat what was given to them from Mother Nature and do the best they could.
When eating meats the best kind is clearly, pasture raised.
So back to my point, I was being told to avoid meats, but what was I avoiding?
A little research found me this: The TEN top facts I have came across.
1. Cancer eats sugar, and sugar provokes cancer growth in the human body. So it would make sense to eat less sugar (carbs) and slightly higher fat and protein from quality sources such as grass fed beef and free range chickens?
2. The human body can not absorb minerals without the presence of fats.
Violent death and murder rates along with suicide correlates with people on a low fat diet by more then 4 times that of people eating higher fat diets. Pretty interesting, fats balance hormones, out of control hormones tend to lead to depression and suicide. Begs the question that if we feed someone who is depressed more quality fats instead of anti-depressants (band-aid) would that help them more??
3. Fats regulate our hormones. Possible that all hormonal dysfunction can be eased, helped or cured if we were to balance our quality fat intake?
4. Fats and cholesterol help construct the integrity of all cells without them your hard tissues turn soft and your soft tissues turn hard. It is well known that the people with the lowest cholesterol readings are people suffering from cancer.
5. The brain is almost 80% fat and the brain actually runs pretty low on carbohydrates. Any more then a teaspoon of sugar in the blood will invoke a emergency within the body. Our pancreases will secrete large amounts of insulin to shuttle the excess sugar out of the blood and into our cells. Yes eating lots of FRUIT or natural sugars of any kind will have the same reaction!
6. The heart is surrounded by lots of saturated fat, as this is what it draws on in time of need. Constantly stressing the heart to elongated bouts of physical activity has a stressful response on our bodies. The heart has to then protect its self as it’s constantly being overworked. Hence why I find it more realistic to train for less then 45 mins 4 times per week with varied work intensity. Stress in high amounts no matter what it is, is generally bad.
7. Our bodies will not effectively incorporated calcium into our muscle tissue and bone structure with out the presence of fat. So sure you consume calcium from leafy green vegetable but are you eating enough saturated fats to help assimilate this and obtain any benefit from the consumption?
8. Fats attract toxins, without fats, our bodies will be damaged by the horrendous toxic environment we live in each day. It’s fair to say that without fats to attract these toxins we would could expect more muscle and organ damage. Not cool.
9. We have essential FATS, which in case you missed it are ESSENTIAL. Essential for what you might ask??… well, LIFE… pretty essential.. There are NO essential carbohydrates.
10. I would be sicker more then normal if I didn’t consume fats in my diet. They actually enhance our immune system. Pretty important for the elderly and young in particular.
Again, this is the information that I came across and have decided is right for me. As a individual who is responsible for my own health. People should also OWN their health choices. After all we are in this mess because we just recited information we heard in school or on government funded advertising.
It’s your turn to stand up and ask yourself, ‘is what I’m doing good for me’ or is it good for someone else/someone company? You be the ultimate judge. We are in control of what we DO each and every day. Think about what you support with your purchase in the form of health, money, humanity and our environment.
In health and happiness,
Shane Richards
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
EAST BLAXLAND BUTCHERY
Hey everyone,
Seeing as it's important to me that everyone get good quality food daily. I have done some searching and come across a FANTASTIC butcher up in East Blaxland. (Shop 45 43-65 Old Bathurst Road East Blaxland.) ph:4739 1395
The butcher is named Lester Sawyer and he cares as much about the QUALITY of the food as he does about the HEALTH of his clientele.
Since meeting with Lester, I have always been impressed with his dedication towards his meats. The customer service is exceptional and recommend that if you eat meat to give Lester a visit.
In the next coming weeks (before the END of March)I will be buying 1/4 body of beef and 1/2 body of pork from Lester. The meat Lester gets are grass fed and grass finished which is the most important thing when sourcing meat.
If you're interested in getting some meats until then, just go up to Lesters shop and tell him Shane from Holistic Foundations sent you, building the community!
Awesome work East Blaxland Butchery, it's because of your commitment to health that we have access to such quality food and will continue to support you as much as our community can.
Look forward to working with you and ordering lots of meat weekly.
In Health & Happiness,
Shane Richards
Seeing as it's important to me that everyone get good quality food daily. I have done some searching and come across a FANTASTIC butcher up in East Blaxland. (Shop 45 43-65 Old Bathurst Road East Blaxland.) ph:4739 1395
The butcher is named Lester Sawyer and he cares as much about the QUALITY of the food as he does about the HEALTH of his clientele.
Since meeting with Lester, I have always been impressed with his dedication towards his meats. The customer service is exceptional and recommend that if you eat meat to give Lester a visit.
In the next coming weeks (before the END of March)I will be buying 1/4 body of beef and 1/2 body of pork from Lester. The meat Lester gets are grass fed and grass finished which is the most important thing when sourcing meat.
If you're interested in getting some meats until then, just go up to Lesters shop and tell him Shane from Holistic Foundations sent you, building the community!
Awesome work East Blaxland Butchery, it's because of your commitment to health that we have access to such quality food and will continue to support you as much as our community can.
Look forward to working with you and ordering lots of meat weekly.
In Health & Happiness,
Shane Richards
Sunday, March 6, 2011
For those of you that don’t know me I’m Shane’s girlfriend, Justine. Shane and I met almost 3 years ago when I started working at Fitness First – I was 18, single, and thought “oh yeah, I don’t have the “perfect body” but it’s ok.”
I’d always sort of wanted to work in a gym as I always had a keen eye for health and fitness but also I think mostly I liked the idea of a free membership. I thought it was the easiest way to keep in shape/to lose weight.
Throughout high school, I struggled with being happy with the way that I look ( like most teenage girls do these days.) When I was in year 8 I went on this huge “health kick”. I’d go for a run up to three times a day – probably running a total of 6-7kms per day, completely minimized what I was eating – for breakfast I had 1 weetbix with 1/2cup skim milk , for morning tea which HAD to be at 10.30 I would have 1 apple, at lunch time which HAD to be at 12.30 I would have 2 rice cakes- with tuna (sometimes) and then for afternoon tea at 3.30pm I would have another 2 rice cakes. Dinner was always around 6.30 and I always had to have what mum would cook because I didn’t want her to think I was trying to lose weight -but it was usually something like meat, potato and veges.
I distinctly remember one Saturday morning opening up the fridge to get out an apple after I had been on a run “ wow this is so easy, I can do this!”. And it was. The weight felt like it was just dropping off me I felt much skinnier and was getting compliments left, right and centre.
I probably lost around 4kg and then it just wouldn’t budge. I was still running and I had no idea why the weight had stopped coming off… I thought to myself that I was still eating too much…. SO, what I had decided to do was stop eating at school all together. I’d have breakfast in the morning (still the weetbix and skim milk) and then just wouldn’t take anything with me to school. Sometimes mum would question what I was doing but I was always saying that I was taking my food or that I was buying my lunch. I’d get home at around 3pm and it was always SO hard then. Mum would always ask me what I wanted but I was always “not hungry”. I became addicted to diet soft drinks because they would fill me but have hardly any calories and my need to chew was satisfied by chewing gum…. I decided to have a shower everyday when I got home from school as it would keep me occupied and out of the kitchen. As soon as I would get out of the shower I’d weigh myself. I always felt lighter after a shower… that way it kept my mind focused on my need to feel skinny and I was so used to always having a shower before I went to bed so it subconsciously took my mind off food. Once the shower thing stopped working and it was no longer taking my mind off the food, I decided to adopt what I read in a magazine that Mariah Carey had said. She used to brush her teeth every time she felt hungry and then she would do 100 crunches.
The hardest part was always at dinner time. Mum would have always cooked enough for everyone and I didn’t want her to suspect anything so again, I had to eat dinner! I felt sick eating I kept thinking to myself I shouldn’t be doing this I'm not going to lose any weight… but, I was wrong!!! At this stage, I probably dropped about 15kg, my period had stopped and I weighed about 47kg. – my goal was 40kg!!
I was thrilled by the idea that I could still have a meal and it wasn’t affecting me. It got to a stage now that Mum and Dad were getting suspicious because I was getting so thin. They didn’t know I wasn’t eating at school but some friends at school had sometimes asked “where’s your food Justine”. They weren’t suspecting anything at all, but I was incredibly paranoid. So, to keep everyone from questioning me, I started to eat little bits and pieces again. I’d have rice cakes most of the time because I knew they had only like 20 calories MAX in one or 2. Now, in one week I hadn’t really put on any weight so I was stoked. But in saying that I hadn’t lost any weight either. I was SO envious of my friends that were able to eat SOOOO much food (not really “sooo” much, but that’s how it felt to me) and not put on any weight. One day, I got home from school and mum had gotten out the rice cakes for me. I sat down at the table and started eating. I ate one, then two and before I knew it I had almost had half the packet. I felt so bloated and disgusted with myself. I wanted to cry and felt as though I had undone all the hard work I had been doing.. I just needed to get it all out of me.
I went to the bathroom and was sick.
I felt SO much better; I was so relieved and satisfied at the same time. I had just managed to satisfy my need to eat, but also satisfy my “need” to feel skinny. To me it was a win/win situation.
By Now, I was in year 9. Every day I would go home and the same thing would happen. I would eat almost a whole packet of rice cakes and be sick…. This got progressively worse and worse. From one packet of rice cakes, it went to bread, saos, icecream (haha notice the trend here)… I was eating it all, and convincing myself that It was ok because I wasn’t actually allowing my body to process all this. I didn’t want anybody to suspect ANYTHING so I started eating again at school. It was only small but again, the same thing would happen, I’d eat then purge. I felt so uncomfortable, hated what I was doing to myself but I just couldn’t stop. I thought I was so in control… but how wrong I was… I was spiralling out of control and just didn’t know how to stop myself. The worse it got, the more people didn’t suspect anything. I became more of an extrovert and I started to gain a few kilos…. My family and friends had no idea.
I started abusing laxatives, reading up on how I could get thinner looking at different diets and exercise. I absolutely hated myself and what I was doing. I was now at a point where I was purging after every little thing I ate, my oesophagus was incredibly irriated and I could purge on call (a few stomach contractions and I could literally push the food back up.) My weight was now hovering at around 54kg and to me I was obese. I had started learning about health, and eating disorders at school and realized what I was doing to myself could potentially kill me.
I was in the middle of year 10 and was in a terrible state. Mum and dad were now questioning me as to, why I would binge eat and then eat nothing and why I would go to the bathroom immediately after I ate. I was furious with them for questioning me and was humiliated that I was leaving “evidence”.
I kept making commitments to myself saying this is the last time…..but It never lasted… I think the longest I went was like a day. I was moody all the time, had terrible skin and was so depressed I hated what I was doing to myself and just couldn’t stop. All I ever thought about was food and how I wanted to be skinny.
I started googling ways to get help, there was no way I could admit to anything with my family and friends… but the only thing it ever said was to tell someone about it. I even remember ringing the kids help line saying to them “I think one of my friends have an eating disorder and even they said to me “you need to tell someone.”
I was now in year 11. Still binging, still wanting to be skinny and still depressed. None of my school friends suspected ANYTHING but my family suspected everything but couldn’t speak to me about it because I would just deny EVERYTHING and get so incredibly angry…
One Wednesday night I was on the computer, again trying to google ways to get myself out of a hell I had created. I went to the bathroom after some icecream I ate and did the usual thing…. I have no idea what it was that came over me but I thought to myself. Why the F am I doing this and started crying my eyes out. I went into my sister’s bedroom and told her EVERYTHING. I didn’t want to live like this any more. I hated the fact I couldn’t enjoy eating anything, I hated the way I felt about myself, I hated the way I was treating my family and I hated feeling as though I would eventually need to be hospitalised because I was going to get so sick. My sister hugged me and cried with me and said she would help me but I needed to tell my mum and dad. I didn’t want to tell them as I knew my mum would feel as though it was her fault even though she had nothing to do with it…
it was everything I had created for myself. After crying with my sister for almost 2 hours, my sister convinced me to go and tell my parents everything. I honestly think it was one of the hardest things I had to do. I was so ashamed of what I had been doing to myself but deep down knew I needed to do this to get better and I was going to need their support to be able to do it. When I told them I just could not stop crying. The look on my mums face I knew she felt so helpless and didn’t know how to help me. She cried and cried and said she was sorry. All she could do was hug me and tell me she was going to help me. I felt so bad that I had made my mum and dad feel this way.
The next day my mum and I went to the doctors. I got a referral to the eating disorder clinic at Nepean hospital and was seeing a psychiatrist. I had to tell these people EVERYTHING about the types of food I was binging on, what started it, when I started how long it was going for and how I would purge. The psychiatrist pinned it down to stress. Stress was my “trigger” and it was the only way I felt in control… I could control exactly what I was doing to myself and I was in control of the way it made me feel. I was off school for weeks and in all honesty it’s all a bit hazy. It was such an emotional rollercoaster. I wanted to get better so badly, but found it hard to stick to everything I had to do. Eg- I wasn’t allowed any soft drinks or caffeine as this would increase my stress levels and increase my inclination to binge but I was so addicted to it. After seeing the psychiatrist, I was also seeing a nutritionist as well. The day she weighed me and said this one thing to me, I never looked back. She thing she said was “you realize that even when you purge, your body will hold on to a lot of the food” it knows what you are doing to it and is trying to keep you alive. I was so upset as I had done this for the last 3 years and it felt like it was for nothing but I finally understood why it was now so hard for me to lose any weight. My metabolism had slowed right down and it was holding on to every last bit it could get. As hard as it was to hear, this was the point where I said to myself I am not going to kill myself, I want to live I am going to get better. – I know that sounds very extreme but at the end of the day it drilled it into my head that if I didn’t stop now, I could potentially die.
I had a set routine that I had to stick to. When I got home from school, I had to take my dog for a walk. Then I could come home and have a snack. I had to write EVERYTHING I did down from school work, to eating, to going out with friends, to going to the bathroom, to bed time absolutely EVERYTHING.
I continued seeing the psychiatrist for about a year and they “helped” me with my nutrition. They made it very clear to me as I started eating again I was probably going to put on weight, but it was something I had to deal with. And that I did. My weight went back up to around 62 kg…. but I finally felt normal again. I remember one specific day when I was at the end of year 12 I was so incredibly excited the day I felt hungry again. I hadn’t felt hunger pains in a VERY long time because I had always ignored the signs of being hungry – I ate, felt satisfied and didn’t feel the need to purge… it was that point that I said to myself im normal again.
The following year in March is when I started at fitness first. I was 18 years old, going out all the time, drinking, eating bad food and loving my life because I was “normal”. Obviously though, eating bad food, my metabolism being slow and drinking alcohol, I started gaining weight. Although it didn’t bother me as much as it would have previously, I wasn’t thrilled about it. I kept trying different things to try and make it shift but it just wasn’t working for me. I kept following the guidelines that the nutritionist set out for me eating my whole grain toast, sandwiches, rice, pasta, low fat dairy and sparing amounts of protein and I couldn’t figure out why it wouldn’t come off.
One day Shane came home with some Real milk. It was full fat, unpasturised and unhomoginsed. I was really weary about trying it but I gave it a go because Shane said it was really nice and explained to me all the nutritional benefits… and boy was he right, it was delicious (to bath in lol)! From that day, I went back to full cream milk. It all started there. I then started eating more meat, more eggs and then started having shakes with raw eggs, coconut oil and milk. Everything that my nutritionist DIDN’T tell me to do. At first I doubted it, I put on a kilo or two because I was actually feeding my body enough and my body wasn’t used to that. Then suddenly the weight just started falling off me – and I was still eating PLENTY of food and only training 4 times per week for 45 min at most. Over the past 2 years I have made SO many changes to my diet by increasing my fat and protein intake, reducing my carbohydrate intake and making changes to my training regime minimizing the amount of cardiovascular exercise I do. I now weigh a healthy 60kg with a body fat percentage of 18.5%.
Shane really has shown me how I can be fit, healthy, happy and strong. He is so incredibly good at what he does and is going to make a difference in the world. He puts so much effort and time into ALL of his clients and gets such a buzz when he sees them working hard and achieving results. His goal is to make a healthy and happy community and I know he will get there, just look at all the people he has already helped and the many more still to come. I am now his girlfriend and so it is easy for me to sit here and talk about him and how good he is at his job, but living the lifestyle he preaches to people from where I was before, I know it works. I wouldn’t have the knowledge I do now if it wasn’t for him. I know there are people out there that think we are a bit extreme with what we do with our nutrition but we know it works and we feel fantastic for it.
I’m now a personal trainer and absolutely love it. I hope to be able to inspire people to get fit, healthy and strong. When people use the excuse that it’s too hard to eat healthy or its too hard to exercise, I know it’s hard, it’s scary and it’s frustrating, but it’s so much harder looking in the mirror each day knowing you could potentially die if you continue to do the things that you are currently doing. I don’t know what it is like to be incredibly overweight, but I sure do know what it feels like to FEEL fat and to feel uncomfortable in your own skin and to hate what you see when you look in the mirror. From a girl who hated steak and would eat a whole bowl of MICROWAVED vegetables for dinner who now orders a steak to be cooked rare and eats the fat from grass finished and free range sources, smearing butter from grass fed cows all over it, I have come a very long way. Yes it’s been a journey and a half but it has been well worth it.
Justine Beath
I’d always sort of wanted to work in a gym as I always had a keen eye for health and fitness but also I think mostly I liked the idea of a free membership. I thought it was the easiest way to keep in shape/to lose weight.
Throughout high school, I struggled with being happy with the way that I look ( like most teenage girls do these days.) When I was in year 8 I went on this huge “health kick”. I’d go for a run up to three times a day – probably running a total of 6-7kms per day, completely minimized what I was eating – for breakfast I had 1 weetbix with 1/2cup skim milk , for morning tea which HAD to be at 10.30 I would have 1 apple, at lunch time which HAD to be at 12.30 I would have 2 rice cakes- with tuna (sometimes) and then for afternoon tea at 3.30pm I would have another 2 rice cakes. Dinner was always around 6.30 and I always had to have what mum would cook because I didn’t want her to think I was trying to lose weight -but it was usually something like meat, potato and veges.
I distinctly remember one Saturday morning opening up the fridge to get out an apple after I had been on a run “ wow this is so easy, I can do this!”. And it was. The weight felt like it was just dropping off me I felt much skinnier and was getting compliments left, right and centre.
I probably lost around 4kg and then it just wouldn’t budge. I was still running and I had no idea why the weight had stopped coming off… I thought to myself that I was still eating too much…. SO, what I had decided to do was stop eating at school all together. I’d have breakfast in the morning (still the weetbix and skim milk) and then just wouldn’t take anything with me to school. Sometimes mum would question what I was doing but I was always saying that I was taking my food or that I was buying my lunch. I’d get home at around 3pm and it was always SO hard then. Mum would always ask me what I wanted but I was always “not hungry”. I became addicted to diet soft drinks because they would fill me but have hardly any calories and my need to chew was satisfied by chewing gum…. I decided to have a shower everyday when I got home from school as it would keep me occupied and out of the kitchen. As soon as I would get out of the shower I’d weigh myself. I always felt lighter after a shower… that way it kept my mind focused on my need to feel skinny and I was so used to always having a shower before I went to bed so it subconsciously took my mind off food. Once the shower thing stopped working and it was no longer taking my mind off the food, I decided to adopt what I read in a magazine that Mariah Carey had said. She used to brush her teeth every time she felt hungry and then she would do 100 crunches.
The hardest part was always at dinner time. Mum would have always cooked enough for everyone and I didn’t want her to suspect anything so again, I had to eat dinner! I felt sick eating I kept thinking to myself I shouldn’t be doing this I'm not going to lose any weight… but, I was wrong!!! At this stage, I probably dropped about 15kg, my period had stopped and I weighed about 47kg. – my goal was 40kg!!
I was thrilled by the idea that I could still have a meal and it wasn’t affecting me. It got to a stage now that Mum and Dad were getting suspicious because I was getting so thin. They didn’t know I wasn’t eating at school but some friends at school had sometimes asked “where’s your food Justine”. They weren’t suspecting anything at all, but I was incredibly paranoid. So, to keep everyone from questioning me, I started to eat little bits and pieces again. I’d have rice cakes most of the time because I knew they had only like 20 calories MAX in one or 2. Now, in one week I hadn’t really put on any weight so I was stoked. But in saying that I hadn’t lost any weight either. I was SO envious of my friends that were able to eat SOOOO much food (not really “sooo” much, but that’s how it felt to me) and not put on any weight. One day, I got home from school and mum had gotten out the rice cakes for me. I sat down at the table and started eating. I ate one, then two and before I knew it I had almost had half the packet. I felt so bloated and disgusted with myself. I wanted to cry and felt as though I had undone all the hard work I had been doing.. I just needed to get it all out of me.
I went to the bathroom and was sick.
I felt SO much better; I was so relieved and satisfied at the same time. I had just managed to satisfy my need to eat, but also satisfy my “need” to feel skinny. To me it was a win/win situation.
By Now, I was in year 9. Every day I would go home and the same thing would happen. I would eat almost a whole packet of rice cakes and be sick…. This got progressively worse and worse. From one packet of rice cakes, it went to bread, saos, icecream (haha notice the trend here)… I was eating it all, and convincing myself that It was ok because I wasn’t actually allowing my body to process all this. I didn’t want anybody to suspect ANYTHING so I started eating again at school. It was only small but again, the same thing would happen, I’d eat then purge. I felt so uncomfortable, hated what I was doing to myself but I just couldn’t stop. I thought I was so in control… but how wrong I was… I was spiralling out of control and just didn’t know how to stop myself. The worse it got, the more people didn’t suspect anything. I became more of an extrovert and I started to gain a few kilos…. My family and friends had no idea.
I started abusing laxatives, reading up on how I could get thinner looking at different diets and exercise. I absolutely hated myself and what I was doing. I was now at a point where I was purging after every little thing I ate, my oesophagus was incredibly irriated and I could purge on call (a few stomach contractions and I could literally push the food back up.) My weight was now hovering at around 54kg and to me I was obese. I had started learning about health, and eating disorders at school and realized what I was doing to myself could potentially kill me.
I was in the middle of year 10 and was in a terrible state. Mum and dad were now questioning me as to, why I would binge eat and then eat nothing and why I would go to the bathroom immediately after I ate. I was furious with them for questioning me and was humiliated that I was leaving “evidence”.
I kept making commitments to myself saying this is the last time…..but It never lasted… I think the longest I went was like a day. I was moody all the time, had terrible skin and was so depressed I hated what I was doing to myself and just couldn’t stop. All I ever thought about was food and how I wanted to be skinny.
I started googling ways to get help, there was no way I could admit to anything with my family and friends… but the only thing it ever said was to tell someone about it. I even remember ringing the kids help line saying to them “I think one of my friends have an eating disorder and even they said to me “you need to tell someone.”
I was now in year 11. Still binging, still wanting to be skinny and still depressed. None of my school friends suspected ANYTHING but my family suspected everything but couldn’t speak to me about it because I would just deny EVERYTHING and get so incredibly angry…
One Wednesday night I was on the computer, again trying to google ways to get myself out of a hell I had created. I went to the bathroom after some icecream I ate and did the usual thing…. I have no idea what it was that came over me but I thought to myself. Why the F am I doing this and started crying my eyes out. I went into my sister’s bedroom and told her EVERYTHING. I didn’t want to live like this any more. I hated the fact I couldn’t enjoy eating anything, I hated the way I felt about myself, I hated the way I was treating my family and I hated feeling as though I would eventually need to be hospitalised because I was going to get so sick. My sister hugged me and cried with me and said she would help me but I needed to tell my mum and dad. I didn’t want to tell them as I knew my mum would feel as though it was her fault even though she had nothing to do with it…
it was everything I had created for myself. After crying with my sister for almost 2 hours, my sister convinced me to go and tell my parents everything. I honestly think it was one of the hardest things I had to do. I was so ashamed of what I had been doing to myself but deep down knew I needed to do this to get better and I was going to need their support to be able to do it. When I told them I just could not stop crying. The look on my mums face I knew she felt so helpless and didn’t know how to help me. She cried and cried and said she was sorry. All she could do was hug me and tell me she was going to help me. I felt so bad that I had made my mum and dad feel this way.
The next day my mum and I went to the doctors. I got a referral to the eating disorder clinic at Nepean hospital and was seeing a psychiatrist. I had to tell these people EVERYTHING about the types of food I was binging on, what started it, when I started how long it was going for and how I would purge. The psychiatrist pinned it down to stress. Stress was my “trigger” and it was the only way I felt in control… I could control exactly what I was doing to myself and I was in control of the way it made me feel. I was off school for weeks and in all honesty it’s all a bit hazy. It was such an emotional rollercoaster. I wanted to get better so badly, but found it hard to stick to everything I had to do. Eg- I wasn’t allowed any soft drinks or caffeine as this would increase my stress levels and increase my inclination to binge but I was so addicted to it. After seeing the psychiatrist, I was also seeing a nutritionist as well. The day she weighed me and said this one thing to me, I never looked back. She thing she said was “you realize that even when you purge, your body will hold on to a lot of the food” it knows what you are doing to it and is trying to keep you alive. I was so upset as I had done this for the last 3 years and it felt like it was for nothing but I finally understood why it was now so hard for me to lose any weight. My metabolism had slowed right down and it was holding on to every last bit it could get. As hard as it was to hear, this was the point where I said to myself I am not going to kill myself, I want to live I am going to get better. – I know that sounds very extreme but at the end of the day it drilled it into my head that if I didn’t stop now, I could potentially die.
I had a set routine that I had to stick to. When I got home from school, I had to take my dog for a walk. Then I could come home and have a snack. I had to write EVERYTHING I did down from school work, to eating, to going out with friends, to going to the bathroom, to bed time absolutely EVERYTHING.
I continued seeing the psychiatrist for about a year and they “helped” me with my nutrition. They made it very clear to me as I started eating again I was probably going to put on weight, but it was something I had to deal with. And that I did. My weight went back up to around 62 kg…. but I finally felt normal again. I remember one specific day when I was at the end of year 12 I was so incredibly excited the day I felt hungry again. I hadn’t felt hunger pains in a VERY long time because I had always ignored the signs of being hungry – I ate, felt satisfied and didn’t feel the need to purge… it was that point that I said to myself im normal again.
The following year in March is when I started at fitness first. I was 18 years old, going out all the time, drinking, eating bad food and loving my life because I was “normal”. Obviously though, eating bad food, my metabolism being slow and drinking alcohol, I started gaining weight. Although it didn’t bother me as much as it would have previously, I wasn’t thrilled about it. I kept trying different things to try and make it shift but it just wasn’t working for me. I kept following the guidelines that the nutritionist set out for me eating my whole grain toast, sandwiches, rice, pasta, low fat dairy and sparing amounts of protein and I couldn’t figure out why it wouldn’t come off.
One day Shane came home with some Real milk. It was full fat, unpasturised and unhomoginsed. I was really weary about trying it but I gave it a go because Shane said it was really nice and explained to me all the nutritional benefits… and boy was he right, it was delicious (to bath in lol)! From that day, I went back to full cream milk. It all started there. I then started eating more meat, more eggs and then started having shakes with raw eggs, coconut oil and milk. Everything that my nutritionist DIDN’T tell me to do. At first I doubted it, I put on a kilo or two because I was actually feeding my body enough and my body wasn’t used to that. Then suddenly the weight just started falling off me – and I was still eating PLENTY of food and only training 4 times per week for 45 min at most. Over the past 2 years I have made SO many changes to my diet by increasing my fat and protein intake, reducing my carbohydrate intake and making changes to my training regime minimizing the amount of cardiovascular exercise I do. I now weigh a healthy 60kg with a body fat percentage of 18.5%.
Shane really has shown me how I can be fit, healthy, happy and strong. He is so incredibly good at what he does and is going to make a difference in the world. He puts so much effort and time into ALL of his clients and gets such a buzz when he sees them working hard and achieving results. His goal is to make a healthy and happy community and I know he will get there, just look at all the people he has already helped and the many more still to come. I am now his girlfriend and so it is easy for me to sit here and talk about him and how good he is at his job, but living the lifestyle he preaches to people from where I was before, I know it works. I wouldn’t have the knowledge I do now if it wasn’t for him. I know there are people out there that think we are a bit extreme with what we do with our nutrition but we know it works and we feel fantastic for it.
I’m now a personal trainer and absolutely love it. I hope to be able to inspire people to get fit, healthy and strong. When people use the excuse that it’s too hard to eat healthy or its too hard to exercise, I know it’s hard, it’s scary and it’s frustrating, but it’s so much harder looking in the mirror each day knowing you could potentially die if you continue to do the things that you are currently doing. I don’t know what it is like to be incredibly overweight, but I sure do know what it feels like to FEEL fat and to feel uncomfortable in your own skin and to hate what you see when you look in the mirror. From a girl who hated steak and would eat a whole bowl of MICROWAVED vegetables for dinner who now orders a steak to be cooked rare and eats the fat from grass finished and free range sources, smearing butter from grass fed cows all over it, I have come a very long way. Yes it’s been a journey and a half but it has been well worth it.
Justine Beath
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